TLed by NolepGuy
Chapter 245
-In the Viewing that Ricardo was watching.
I looked at Mikhail’s eyes with a slight gaze.
“What’s going on…?”
Mikhail’s eyes, which contained a sense of bewilderment, soon began to fill with Emotion Called Rage.
“How do you know that name?”
“I’m the one who… ”
Mikhail said in a trembling Voice.
“Shut up…”
Mikhail scolded me, asking how I knew the name of a memory that no one else knew, revealing his emotions without hiding them, and roaring with Roaring Anger.
“Don’t mention my Memory with that filthy mouth.”
I, in the Viewing, was smiling awkwardly, looking troubled as if I didn’t know what to do.
It was the first time I had experienced someone denying their own identity.
As I watched him, I let out a bitter sigh and shook my head, wondering if I was that Precious Person to Mikhail.
I was just Mikhail’s friend, but it was awkward and thankful that Mikhail remembered me and didn’t forget me.
‘This is troublesome.’
I, in the Viewing, spoke to Mikhail in a calm Voice, as if nothing was wrong.
“It’s nice that you remember me like that.”
“Shut up.”
“I didn’t know if you would still remember me.”
It seems I’m still the same.
Even my thoughts are the same.
I let out an Empty Laugh and shook my head.
There was one thing I had been curious about for a long time.
If I revealed the truth to Mikhail, what kind of person would I be to him?
The Benefactor who saved my life.
A long-time friend.
Honestly, I didn’t think Mikhail would treat me kindly, because from my perspective, I didn’t think I was an important person to him.
What I was most curious about was my own reaction, because even I didn’t know myself well.
Would I laugh and be honest about my past, or would I get angry and scold Mikhail… I didn’t know how I would react in that situation.
I, in the Viewing, began to open my mouth, which had been tightly closed, towards Mikhail, who was staring at me with a fierce gaze.
The situation was exhausting, and I spoke to Mikhail in a tone filled with frustration.
“I did my Best Effort, but you seem to dislike me that much, Mikhail.”
“…Who are you, the one who told you that name?”
“Are you going to say that again? Why can’t you trust people?”
“Say it.”
“A…”
I, in the Viewing, began to pour out sharp words towards Mikhail, who didn’t believe me.
“I’ve done everything I can for Mikhail.”
“Don’t change the subject, say it straight…”
“I tried to make you grow up a bit more comfortably and didn’t want to harm you, so I did my Best Effort.”
“…Ricardo!!!”
“I…!!!”
As I slowly revealed the truth, Mikhail’s face began to turn pale.
“I tied up the Archbishop’s feet that day, and…!”
“Please…”
“I even saved you when you were drifting away in the River Water, and I helped you without hearing a word of thanks.”
“No… this is.”
“Why are you disappointed in me?”
I, in the Viewing, shouted at Mikhail, who was getting drenched in the rain, my emotions overflowing.
“Why do you think everything I do is just pretending to be good and wrong?”
“…No.”
“Do you dislike me that much?”
“…”
“I, who didn’t ask for anything and only helped you, a friend from your childhood…! Do you think I’m that despicable?”
“…That’s not it. You’re…”
“What am I, then? I remembered the Promise I made to protect you when we were young and struggled to keep it, even when the Academy was on fire, I went in to check if you were there. Why do I have to hear you call me Trash?”
I was pouring out my Resentment to Mikhail in a Desperate Voice.
“I’m a person who killed a friend, but does that mean I’m Trash? I’m a person with a sense of guilt, after all.”
“…”
“The one you call a friend, That Guy, was trying to harm you from behind, is it wrong that I protected you?”
“…Why.”
“Why did you do that?”
I, in the Viewing, had more Resentment than I thought, and as the conversation began, I started to pour out my emotions.
The misunderstandings.
The complaints that had been building up inside me, I expressed them, clenching my Fist.
“Because I Promised.”
“…”
“To keep that Promise, so you wouldn’t suffer as much.”
“…”
“You hurt the Young Lady, and I wanted to hit you, but I kept my Promise, damn it… I kept it because I didn’t want to break it like your Mother did.”
“I didn’t know.”
“I didn’t know! Why do you only hate me?”
I smiled bitterly, looking at my self in the Viewing, feeling a bit relieved but also awkward.
I bowed my head and muttered quietly.
‘Your words are a bit too harsh.’
Still, she’s a Lady.
‘I don’t know.’
I let out an Empty Laugh and nodded.
Mikhail was standing still, unable to say anything, tears streaming down his face, and he couldn’t look me straight in the eye.
As he wept, Mikhail reached out to grab my Sleeve with a trembling hand.
“I… I… I”
“…”
“I’m a Bad Person, so it’s okay if I die… that’s why.”
I, in the Viewing, avoided Mikhail’s outstretched hand and declared the end of our relationship, pouring out my Resentment and Curse.
“I don’t want to be involved with you anymore.”
“…Minhyuk!!!”
“Don’t call me.”
“…Huh?”
“Like you told me, don’t call me with that mouth.”
“A… Ah…”
Mikhail chased after me as I walked away.
Please don’t go.
Even if I tripped on the puddles.
Even if the Students’ gazes fell on me.
Mikhail ran for a while to catch up to me in the Viewing.
‘…’
I didn’t feel good.
Seeing Mikhail’s desperate state, I didn’t feel relieved, and it seemed wrong for me to neglect him, knowing he was a Girl.
‘Idiot’
I shook my head, looking at myself walking away, thinking that if I had given in to my emotions back then, something like this would have happened.
I kept my mouth shut and held back my words.
The viewpoint had changed.
The image of Mikhail, alone in a dark room, continued to appear in the Viewing.
The rain stopped.
The sun rose.
The moon set again.
Despite the countless days passing on the calendar, Mikhail remained still, holed up in the dormitory.
“I’m sorry….”
In the darkness where no light entered, Mikhail worried about someone who wouldn’t come, hugging their knees and passing the time.
Sometimes, someone would knock on Mikhail’s door.
-Is Mikhail in their room…?
Yuria came to visit.
-Mikhail, student.
A professor came to visit.
-Mikhail, if you don’t come out now, you’ll be expelled.
Chartia came to visit, telling Mikhail to continue their studies, but Mikhail didn’t budge, refusing to leave their room.
“I’m Trash…”
Mikhail had written a letter, the recipient being Ricardo, and at the same time, they wrote an apology to Lee Minhyuk, the owner of the memories they remembered.
-I’m sorry… I’m really sorry.
Sorry.
-I want to go see you, but I’m afraid you’ll dislike me, so I’ll write a letter and send it. If you tell me not to come, I won’t, and if you say you don’t want to see me, I’ll leave.
Mikhail wrote the letter desperately.
-Just reply once.
As Mikhail continued to write letters with no response, their darkness deepened.
***
-…The Viewing will end.
They saw different futures.
The Man let out a deep sigh.
-Haa…
The woman was struggling with unbearable sorrow.
-No, this can’t be…
They both had complex emotions, having seen different futures.
Love.
Jealousy.
Friendship.
The music sheet, filled with elements of emotions that were hard to put into words, had finally come to an end, marked by a period, not a repeat mark.
A period, not a repeat mark.
“…”
The two of them closed their eyes, lost in thought.
*
-Plop.
Rain was falling.
-Plop, plop, plop.
Raindrops were falling onto my palm, one by one, and seeping into my clothes.
I smiled faintly and opened my umbrella.
“Damn.”
I thought it was wrong to speak.
I decided that I could talk later, when I was more calm, choosing the best option for the Possessor’s life.
“Huu.”
I walked slowly through the streets of the Capital City, smiling faintly.
And.
-…
A Girl, drenched in the rain, was standing on the other side of the carriage path.
I smiled faintly and walked towards her, covering her with my umbrella and greeting her.
“Miss Misa.”
“…”
“You’ll catch a cold.”
Mikhail was staring at me, unblinking.
“I…”
I cut off Mikhail’s words, smiling and saying:
“Sword.”
“…”
“When you have time, come learn.”
Her name was Misa.
And at the same time, she was my friend.