Lin Nan could barely accept the idea of crossdressing.
But in terms of acceptance level, it was only to the extent of dressing up alone in the room under Chen Yao's coercion and persuasion. The key points being that no one except Chen Yao was allowed to see, it couldn't look ugly, and it could only be for a brief few minutes, around ten to fifteen minutes or so.
This kind of crossdressing could be considered self-entertainment, but living as a woman was different.
During that brief half hour of crossdressing at Chen Yao's place, Lin Nan's mind had already experienced various emotions like excitement, joy, and thrill. Most of these emotions didn't even belong to him, and he'd even had thoughts that living as a girl like this wouldn't be so bad.
That was just half an hour, and with magic enhancing his appearance to a level he could accept. But if he had to live crossdressed for an entire day... who knows if he wouldn't completely transform into a girl's mindset.
Even if that didn't happen, what if he became addicted to those strange emotions and the large amounts of dopamine being secreted?
Lin Nan's face had been pale from the abdominal pain, but now thinking about how Chen Yao had stared fixedly at his chest back then, he couldn't help but flush red.
"Can't you use magic too?" Lin Nan decided to ask Lina for help.
However, Lina's stance on this matter was completely different from Lin Nan's. She actually hoped Lin Nan would become female and then become the catalyst for Lilith's revival. Perhaps the revived Lilith would even change her previously terrible personality and no longer be the so-called witch.
So she firmly shook her head: "Magic is precious! You inherited Lilith's legacy so of course you should use magic without worry. Meanwhile, if I use too much, I won't be able to return to my world in the future."
"To think you’d started using sanitary pads..."
"We're not that close!" Lina turned her head away with a huff.
Who was it that clung to me like an accessory during our second meeting?
But now that he knew the solution, Lin Nan didn't have to worry too much about suddenly dying from accumulated menstrual blood. After all, when he was close to dying, Lina would probably save him, right?
That's what he thought, but who knew what Lina was really thinking? Lin Nan couldn't possibly entrust his life entirely to Lina.
He returned to the dorm worriedly, walking in to find Chen Yao playing games.
Lin Nan went straight back to his seat, picking up the heat pack and pressing it against his stomach again.
To unlock the magic by living crossdressed for an entire day, it would be fine if Chen Yao wasn't in the dorm. He could buy two packs of instant noodles in advance and crossdress in the dorm where no one would see him.
But now Chen Yao was back in the dorm...
Moreover, because Lilith's soul existed within him, Lin Nan had extremely high standards for his crossdressing. He had been extremely dissatisfied the first time he crossdressed, until he fortunately unlocked the transformation magic.
The magic to transform into a female wasn't like the passive ability that increased reaction speed - it could only last about thirty minutes. Therefore, to maintain a feminine appearance for an entire day, he would have to rely on makeup, clothing, and hairstyle.
He had none of those...
Chen Yao glanced back at Lin Nan, feeling that he seemed even more withdrawn than before he left.
"Who did you go meet?" he asked curiously while playing his game.
"Just that girl from before."
"Lina?" Chen Yao had somehow learned Lina's name. After pondering for a moment, he shook his head, "That girl is a bit strange, you'd better not interact with her too much."
Lin Nan was surprised by Chen Yao's thoughts and looked at him puzzled.
Chen Yao then explained: "They say she's a transfer student, but quite a few people have noticed something off about her."
"What's off?"
He thought Lina's enrollment was simply due to using magic, like perhaps using suggestive magic on the principal to make him think Lina's family had donated several hundred thousand yuan? Or maybe she altered some documents. After all, with magic, it would be completely possible to manipulate various aspects of society.
Lin Nan was also planning to use magic to resolve his identity issues once he completely became a woman and confirmed there was no way to change back.
"Because I felt that girl was being too enthusiastic towards you, I specifically asked her classmates about her." Chen Yao often played basketball and was quite active, so he naturally knew many people. Through friends of friends, he had learned some things.
"They say this girl acts weird, doesn't get along well with her roommates, has a strange personality, and her values are even more..."
Lin Nan thought it was normal for people to find Lina strange, after all, she was from another world. It was natural to have significant differences from Earth people in various aspects.
However, he agreed with Chen Yao's words - it would be better not to interact too much with Lina.
Just look, after one interaction, Lina had already tried to persuade him to use magic and live crossdressed for an entire day.
Lin Nan was still struggling with whether this was feasible.
Who knew if his stomach would still hurt badly after using the so-called purification magic.
In Lilith's memories, she had never worried about menstrual pain, but that was largely because Lilith had passive magic all over her body, like a game character with all sorts of buffs. She was incredibly strong and healthy - forget about menstrual pain, she didn't even catch colds.
Even if he really were to live crossdressed for a day, he would need women's clothes, right?
Not only would he need women's clothes, but he would need to look pretty in them. Only then would he avoid feeling inexplicably sad like the last time he crossdressed.
Lin Nan sat at his desk, one hand propping up his chin as he browsed online.
After being feminized for over a month, plus the influence of Lilith's soul, his aversion to crossdressing wasn't actually as strong as imagined. During the last shopping trip, he had even been captivated by women's clothing. But the problem was, he feared that after living as a woman for a day, he would be assimilated by Lilith even more severely.
He almost unconsciously started searching online for various pretty women's clothing combinations and wigs that might suit his face shape.
"With my face shape, I should be able to pull off most hairstyles that aren't too bizarre, right?" Lin Nan muttered to himself, but then remembered some masculine features on his face, "Should probably go with long hair, to cover them up..."
He sighed worriedly. Even if he really decided to crossdress, how would he explain it to Chen Yao in the dorm?
"Are you planning to crossdress?" Chen Yao had somehow appeared behind him, peering at the screen to ask.
Lin Nan jumped in fright, immediately hitting ALT+F4 to close all the web pages.
He nervously denied it: "No, I was trying to buy some clothes and accidentally clicked on the women's clothing page."
"Then why were you looking at wigs?" Chen Yao looked down at Lin Nan puzzled.
Completely at a loss for how to explain!
Lin Nan stammered for a long time, unable to say a word, his face burning red as if some embarrassing secret had been discovered.
Seeing that Chen Yao seemed about to say something else, he suddenly stood up and rushed out to the balcony with his head down.