The competition was over, the prize money was in hand, and Lin Nan suddenly felt that school life had lost its purpose.
It was time to unlock some magic. Although his body would become increasingly feminine as a result, it was still better than paying for surgery later.
Besides, he could prepare in advance, start unlocking magic during the week before winter break, then completely transform into a girl on the last day. Yeah.
Lin Nan felt his idea was sound. The key was choosing which magic to unlock.
This was quite a headache. Those self-harming unlock methods could easily kill him, while the shameful unlock methods could easily result in what Lina had said,
While becoming a girl, he would also lose himself and have his body taken over by Lilith's soul.
Lin Nan could clearly sense that Lilith's originally extinct soul was gradually reviving within his body. During this period, he dreamed almost every day of becoming Lilith and experiencing her unforgettable, profound memories.
Sometimes he even suspected that he was actually Lilith, not Lin Nan.
After all, those three hundred years of memories were simply too much.
"Lin Nan? Time to go to class."
He suddenly looked up. He had originally just wanted to search through his memories for some more acceptable magic to unlock, but had accidentally become immersed in Lilith's memories.
"I'll put on my shoes," he unconsciously replied.
"What did you say?"
Chen Yao scratched his head in confusion. What Lin Nan had just said sounded like gibberish to him.
He had accidentally switched to the other world's language.
Only then did Lin Nan realize that due to their memories becoming entangled and merging, he seemed to have returned to the situation when he first encountered Lilith. Back then, he would inadvertently speak the otherworld language, but after staying home for a few days, he had forcibly corrected it. However, some of Lilith's small gestures and habits he still couldn't resist even now.
Like tilting his head slightly when speaking.
For a cute girl, this would naturally be quite adorable, but Lin Nan was deeply troubled by it. Fortunately, his roommates had long gotten used to his feminine mannerisms.
Bending down, he put on what he considered neutral-style women's shoes, grabbed one of Chen Yao's thin jackets to drape over himself, and only then got up from his seat, ready to go to class.
Time had gradually entered November. The temperature had dropped from around thirty-five degrees in September to about twenty-five degrees. Although people on the street were still mostly wearing short sleeves at this temperature, Lin Nan had forcibly commandeered Chen Yao's jacket under the pretext of being cold.
The main issue was that his own denim jacket was really too tight-fitting. It was fine if he didn't button it up, but if he did, his chest would be compressed to the point of making breathing uncomfortable, and it wouldn't serve to conceal anything at all. Instead, because of how tight it was, it would highlight his figure even more.
Fortunately, Chen Yao was much taller than him. A jacket that fit Chen Yao perfectly would have its hem almost covering Lin Nan's hips when he wore it, perfectly concealing his feminine figure.
But for some reason, even though it was clearly men's clothing, when he wore it, it always felt like women's clothing.
Picking up the textbooks he needed for the morning, Lin Nan paid no attention to Tu Junhui and Xiong Da who were still dawdling in bed, and left the dorm with Chen Yao.
"You should buy yourself a jacket. You look weird wearing my clothes."
They had left early, so there was barely a student in sight in the hallway. Chen Yao walked beside him, looking at his phone as he spoke. "If you want to hide your figure, I recommend buying a trench coat. It's better than wearing my clothes and looking like a little kid."
As he spoke, his gaze unconsciously shifted from his phone screen to Lin Nan's legs protruding from the jacket.
With the jacket covering Lin Nan's hips, his legs in casual pants looked even more slender and alluring. This was probably what they meant by "clothes make you look thin, undressed shows you have curves?"
"Who has time to wear a trench coat?"
Lin Nan actually thought the jacket suited him quite well.
"If you like it, just keep wearing it. You don't need to return it to me tonight."
The main thing was that after Lin Nan wore his clothes, they would always pick up some milky fragrance, which smelled quite nice, but it easily led his thoughts in directions they shouldn't go...
Although he already knew Lin Nan was completely a girl, and the little Lin Nan he had seen when they went to the bathroom together in middle school was just the result of a deformity, once he had such thoughts, Chen Yao still felt extremely guilty, accompanied by some confusion about "this is a man."
This confusion was the result of seeing Lin Nan as male for so long.
The two planned to get breakfast, so they had come out early. The dorm hallway was almost empty of people, and even after leaving the dormitory, a quick glance showed only about a dozen people walking around the school.
Although the midday temperature didn't seem to have dropped much compared to summer, the early morning was full of mist, with the temperature probably just over twenty degrees. Chen Yao, wearing short sleeves, unconsciously shivered, but Lin Nan had no reaction at all, only feeling that his skin seemed a bit cool.
However, the school cafeteria was quite lively. Lin Nan followed closely behind Chen Yao, looking around nervously and suspiciously.
Buying two meat buns and a cup of soy milk, the two found an empty seat nearby with no one around. Chen Yao knew that Lin Nan's nerves were basically in a constant state of tension now and didn't like being the center of attention.
"Hey, Lin Nan."
"What?"
"What are you going to do when you go home for winter break?" he asked worriedly. "Your dad definitely won't want to see you, right?"
Lin Nan was startled, lowered his head to bite his meat bun and said, "Whatever works. Anyway, my family is renting a place, and after I go back for winter break, my mom might take me for surgery, so I probably won't run into him."
Because of the possibility of Lilith's revival, Lin Nan had already mentally prepared for surgery. Family debt and possible medical accidents weren't as risky as having his body taken over.
But thinking about his father, Lin Nan's resentment actually grew heavier. Previously he had only been disappointed and heartbroken about his father, but now, due to Lilith's influence, he actually had even more excessive impulses.
This made him afraid to continue thinking, trying his best to push his father's words and image from that time out of his mind.
"True, it's just a rental anyway. Pack up your stuff and you can live anywhere." But he still hesitated before asking, "But... he is your father after all..."
"After I graduate, I'll just send him some money every month so he can't go around saying I don't support him in his old age," Lin Nan replied expressionlessly. "Besides, when they divorce, he didn't plan to give my mom any money, so he definitely won't lack money then and won't need me."
"I'm just afraid that when he's bedridden and can't get up, he'll remember you."
"..."
Lin Nan felt Chen Yao's thought was somewhat disgusting. If his father really did, it would be truly revolting beyond words.