EP.119 34-1. They Fight, but They Also Love.
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White Wolf, Shadow Fang worked well, just like during the grade test.
"Phine, it's just you and me left, like last time."
"..."
Darkness surrounding us.
Emptiness that no one can approach, my inner self.
I've been thinking about it, but what kind of life would I have lived if I didn't have our Phine?
Would my heart have been broken and crushed a long time ago, and would I have died like a flame going out in a cold world where there was no hope?
"You're used to it, right? You can't check the inside from the outside."
If Phine wasn't angry and was in a rational state, she might have been able to block my attack.
But I've also become much stronger while fighting Head at the risk of my life.
"Aren't you going to answer me? I'm a little sad."
I had a slight assumption that I might be able to win even if I fought the current Phine. But if I really fought, I would let her win.
Because I can throw away pride and such for the warm and cozy feeling of love.
In the first place, the one who loves more loses in love.
'The true strength of a main wife is pocket size…. No, it's terrifying.'
I was trying to regain my composure while looking at Phine, who was only wearing a glass helmet, but no matter what, she attracted my gaze too much.
Is it because I put a poster of Phine, who became a Saintess, in my room in reality? It's too stimulating. It's true that knowing the taste is scary.
'I don't even set my sights on other female characters usually, but Phine is an exception after all.'
I was already in love with the game character and distancing myself from women in reality.
There was someone in the monitor who liked even the burn scars, so was there a need to worry about reality?
I have a wife and imaginary children in the computer.
I couldn't tell that it was our Phine just by looking at her body last time. In the first place, the current her is from a different time period.
At least 5 to 10 years. That is the time gap between <Knight Heart> and <Black Heart>.
If I count it in imperial years, it's probably right.
"Do you remember? You called me a pervert here."
Because I memorized the size of her when she was a Saintess, I couldn't recognize her because I was buried in stereotypes.
In the first place, it doesn't make sense for her to get bigger than that.
There's a high possibility that no one would have recognized her even if someone other than me came. Ah, I feel like I'm going to have a nosebleed again. Damn it.
"This time too, only the helmet is left…."
Phine Gransia, who only had a glass helmet left, was making footsteps and walking towards me.
Wolf eyes that had turned as red as blood.
She must have become like that because she was attacked by the apostle's power.
Because it was like a mid-boss that I had to go through while catching the demon lords of the Hero Cult, I knew their abilities to some extent.
I had to be careful about this. She has a personality similar to me that she won't listen to others no matter what.
A personality that is independent and autocratic, thinking and acting alone.
"Phine, even so, putting up dozens of glass walls in the palace was too much."
I couldn't help but laugh because there was a slightly similar point. Where in the world is there anything bad about having something in common with the person you love?
There are many cases in the world where love fades for trivial reasons. This is a reward for this.
Even if I used Old Thought in my room, dozens of glass walls were surrounding me, preventing me from escaping, so it was late. How thoroughly was she trying to confine me.
"I like confinement pure love too, but I'll break out of it anytime. Phine."
"..."
Because I share her magic circuit, I knew where she was sensually. Life is not shared, but we are in a relationship where we share heartbeats.
"If you're angry, let's fight and talk."
"Licht.."
Even if a white wolf sulks and gets angry, it's just cute. There were no more feelings.
"Because that's the answer I think. Phine."
When she was the Nameless Saintess, I could love her as much as I wanted,
Because she was just a game character in the end. There was no problem even if I unilaterally conveyed my emotions.
But now that I've entered the game, it was difficult to think of her as a virtual character anymore.
I also didn't want people who would marry or date someone like me with severe burn scars to get cursed at, and this was the best I could do.
"Come here, I'll hug you tightly. No matter how much you hurt me."
I can't arbitrarily judge her because of my light love and steal her colors.
What is Pure Love in the first place. I took a step forward, matching her pace.
"How much can I accept your childishness. Phine."
Dark Knight and White Knight.
Shadow and Glass.
Even if they were packed with completely opposite characteristics, to the point that it was okay to see them as completely opposite figures, even if their status was clearly different between commoner and princess.
Even if she lost her memories due to Ignorance and the memories they had together were forgotten.
Isn't Pure Love the ability to love again?
"..."
"It's going to be a little stuffy, but you have to endure it."
I hugged Phine tightly. I pressed her a little strongly so that she couldn't struggle. Even after being caught by me, she was using glass magic,
"..Eup."
She was cutting my back with glass shards. I felt the pain of cutting flesh and the lukewarm temperature of blood.
'The Apostle of Wrath's ability is time-limited.'
It's better than Phine attacking other people or collapsing the cave. She's a kind person, so she'll definitely get hurt.
I am a Dark Knight. And a Pure Love Dark Knight.
I am not an extraordinary hero, but just a knight who can do anything for Phine Gransia's happiness.
At least it's better if I get hurt if someone is going to get hurt.
"Licht, let me go.."
"I don't want to. Bad wolf."
Why is she so calm even after entering a state of anger? I thought she would shout or get angry more. It seems that her heart is really empty.
"Why do you always.. do this.."
"Because I'm your only Dark Knight. Phine."
Can I capture the heart of the Platinum Wolf, which has become empty? It's probably going to be difficult. But, like the proverb I always say.
"Please don't move for a moment like this."
I will do my best. If I can't love her, I can at least protect her by her side.
Without letting go of the arms that were hugging her, I pressed my body even closer.
"Licht.. I.. I'm getting angry.."
"Why are you angry?"
In case Phine gets hurt by a blind magic, it was okay for my back to get hurt as much as it wanted. I have to accept the karma for not recognizing her last time.
A distance where breaths stuck together and touched. A hot body temperature as if we had become one.
"Because Licht.. didn't kiss me last time…."
She started to say something shocking. Is it because she's angry that the emotions inside are popping out?
"I saw it in a book…. it all worked out if you did that there…."
"..."
Phine, who was releasing her accumulated emotions, like a porcupine with thorns. How much do you blindly believe in romance novels. The ultimate purpose of knowledge is practice, but it was too much.
"Everyone came over.. and cherished them."
The glass swords that were cutting my back broke. The attack seemed to have stopped. I no longer felt the pain of being burned by a hot fire.
"Licht was bad.. Princess.. angry.."
Huff. The wolf was showing off her cute side, even making a nasal sound. It was a situation where my lips shouldn't go up, but they did.
"Let's do it just once-aah.. I really want to know if it tastes like lemon…."
The strong heartbeat that started pounding like starting an engine started beating so much that I couldn't tell if it was my own sound.
"I'm curious.. Licht."
The wolf's eyes turned from red to gold, and she was rubbing her lip part against me, wearing a glass helmet, trying to kiss me.
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There is a topic that I and my gigolo friend discussed until dawn last time.
'If you love, can you love even the bad parts of that person?'
A topic that heated up the game community. A new voting post was created, and hundreds of comments were made,
"This keeps burning. Wasn't this content that would cool down quickly?"
Numerous players gave examples of the routes they had succeeded in and continued with long explanations.
"I'm against it. How can you love even the bad parts."
"What? Isn't that obviously right? You have to love even the bad parts to be Pure Love, Ki-seok."
Kwon Ki-seok, who was thoroughly calculative, was on the opposite side. In the first place, bad habits should be corrected, that is true love.
"Then are you saying that I should gratefully accept the poison that our princess gives me? Lee Soo-hyun?"
I agree with that opinion to some extent. But if there's one difference,
"To some extent."
"You're really crazier than me. Why do you have to eat it?"
I think that because I love, I also fight. In reality, reality is not a fairy tale. Happy days cannot be repeated.
"First of all, if the person you like is poisoned and almost collapses, wouldn't that icy princess change her mind? You gigolo bastard."
Therefore, you can't force the other person to have the ideal aspects that you think. Everyone has flaws, and that's what Pure Love is about, loving even that.
Like Phine Gransia did, you can confine them. Whether that's Pure Love or not is a separate issue.
"In the first place, is it okay to arbitrarily change that person just because you like them?"
"If it's a bad side, you have to change it. Soo-hyun."
Unconditionally changing is not the answer. At least you have to respect the opinion of the person you love.
"But what if that person doesn't want to change?"
I continued the story, casting a vote in favor of 'You have to love even the bad side' in the voting post.
"I think so. Kwon Ki-seok."
The number went up by one, and he gave an opinion that was the opposite of Northern Duke's Husband. If you love, you have to love the person's true nature.
"If the person you love is in the darkness, it would be nice to save them to a place with light."
I realized this thanks to the stalemate. That guy seems to have different thoughts than me. He can't throw away his unique cold personality.
"But…. I think going to find the light switch together in that darkness is closer to Pure Love."
It's said that if you're happy, it's Pure Love, but I think that loving even the wrong parts of your lover and trying to fix them together is Pure Love.
"You have to get angry and fight because you don't match each other. That must be the feeling of love."
In the first place, if you don't have feelings for each other, you won't even fight. Indifference is the scariest thing.
I finished speaking while using an emoticon that raised my thumb.
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It seemed like the anger had subsided for a while, so I released the hug, and now our Phine even took off her helmet.
"Licht.."
I didn't know it would turn out like this. The white wolf who was slowly narrowing the distance again.
"Cherish me.. treat me specially.. differently from other people."
The movement of a hunter aiming for a kiss. If I get caught again like this, I won't be able to escape because of her strength.
Think. Think. I can't kiss her like this.
'If I'm going to do it, I have to do it while I'm sane.'
It's right to raise the affection to 50 percent and do it after formally being allowed to date. An impossible act with a low number like 2 percent.
It's right to do it after properly knowing the feeling of love. She is now confusing obsession and love.
Then….
"Phine, please bear with this for now."
If she wants a kiss, I just have to achieve that goal. I quickly lifted the visor to expose my face.
I stamped my thumb on my lips like a seal,
"Ah.. eup."
Kkuuk. I stamped Phine's lower lip with that again. An act that is ambiguous to even see as an indirect kiss. I just touched her and my lips with my finger.
"Is this.. a kiss..?"
In fact, it isn't. Even passing children would say that it's not even a peck. But there was no choice. I'm a castrated guy who has no dating experience.
I'm a coward who can't even kiss like Dennis or White Magnolia in a atmospheric way.
"It's electrifying."
I also felt a tingling sensation as if I had been electrocuted by my thumb, and the soft sensation that was transmitted through my fingertips.
A woman's lips are this soft. It felt like time had stopped for a moment, and
This is not a kiss. Why do I feel heat on my face? The rose scent that was spreading out small swirled in my brain.
"..Licht, did it for me."
She had only touched each other's lips with her finger. Phine ended those words and staggered and fell.
"Phine?"
I couldn't help but be embarrassed. It's not even like I stole her first kiss. Is the shock big?
"Phine?! Come to your senses!!"
I barely caught the white-haired girl who was falling backwards. Fortunately, the one wolf who doesn't know love, who came into my arms, didn't get hurt.
"Hehe.. Licht-eu.."
She was even talking in her sleep, as if she was having a good dream.